Week 5: New Mexico

I crested the San Andreas mountains at lunchtime.  The San Andreas are the range of black mountains that separate Las Cruces and Truth or Consequences from valleys to the east.  The Tularosa Basin was before me, home of White Sands National Monument.  I have wanted to visit the dunes for years, but for some reason or other, and despite several efforts, the closest I had made it until this day was Albuquerque.  I had first seen the dunes, rare gypsum sand worn from the hills to the southwest, in a yoga video I acquired while stationed in Korea.  I’m not sure whether it was the yoga, or being able to spend an hour ‘in the States’ while I did the poses, or the sheer beauty of the photography, but the dunes always seemed like a refuge to me.  It was not until I was driving up the west side of the range, out of Las Cruces and towards the monument, that I realized the monument was adjacent to White Sands Missile Range, one of the most physically violent places on earth.

The valley is huge, hundreds of square miles of dry lakebed.  It is quite beautiful, the desert rock of the mountains still open to the elements, the lower elevations covered with thin patches of dried grass and low desert chaparral.  I was immediately taken (and this was completely unexpected) by the weight of this place, or, more specifically, our human actions towards it.  It is a remote area, and desolate, and for these reasons has been designated expendable.  The earth here is regularly shattered (and the animals and plants assailed) by the force of missile tests and impacts.  Trinity, the site of the world’s first atomic weapons test, is northwest of the monument, the scar still visible on satellite photos.  And we, as a nation, have decided this is ‘OK’.  I pondered these thoughts as I continued towards the park.

I could not initially see the dunes from the highway, but as I drove they began to shimmer along the horizon to the north.  Once you reach them, they are beautiful.  The sand is white, and softer than beach sand, and unexpectedly bright.  As you go deeper in to the park, the grasses and yucca gave way to open dunes.    For some reason they are popular for sledding, with the sand marked with footprints and long impressions near most of the parking turn-outs.  I found a shady spot (to help out my faithful houseplants) checked the map and headed out for a hike.  For such a remote area it was surprisingly busy.  There were close to twenty cars in the lot, and on trail I would meet another group every few minutes.  One couple wore an unusual tee shirt and we stopped to talk.  They were in the area for the Battan Memorial Death March, held two days before.  Two thousand of the soldiers sent to the Philippine theatre were from the New Mexico National Guard.  Following months of intense battle, they were part of the contingent surrendered to Japan.  These Prisoners of War were then forced to march to their confinement camps, 65 long miles with little food or water. Nine hundred New Mexico Guardsmen survived until release, but close to half died within a year of returning home: to vehicle accidents, alcoholism or ‘unexplained circumstances (most likely suicide).  The Memorial March had been held two days earlier, twenty six miles in the high desert of the test range.  This year eleven of the twenty still alive were able to participate in the memorial.

DSCN2051DSCN2052This may be the time to speak of the orb in the sky.  Rumor is that it is still ‘not working’ in the northeast, at least the radiating warmth part.  Let me tell you, it was ‘working’ this day.  It was hot, and there was nothing between me and the sun but blue sky.  But it was a nice sort of hot, dry, in the way that you and your clothes don’t get sticky.  I took off my shoes and the sand was warm on my feet, very easy to walk in, cool just under the surface.  I expected the trail to wind along the semi-hard beds between the dunes (the name was ‘the Alkali Flats Trail’) but it meandered up and down and around the dunes.  Three weeks driving had taken it’s toll, after a short while I was huffing and puffing.  Aware of the altitude, and my thirst, and my friends waiting in the car (still recovering from mild frostbite at Arlington) I turned back early.  It was a nice visit, thought not anything like I had expected.
DSCN2072DSCN2070DSCN2067I arrived in Santa Fe on Wednesday.  I will be spending five weeks here, at a Zen Center nestled in a canyon on the east side of town.  For the past four weeks I had been living out of four bags, so it was nice to settle and start to unpack the Xterra.  My room is in the main house, a former dining room off the kitchen that opens onto a gorgeous courtyard.  It is a Pueblo style home, low adobe with rounded corners, accented with corner fireplaces and large wooden beams.  Inside it is natural wood cupboards and furniture, primarily in the raw, lightly finished Ranchero style, with Buddhist artwork.  It is above seven thousand feet here, spring still creeping up from the valley below, so the earth was still brown, and most plants dormant waiting for warmer temps.  The exception (other than the pine) was the cherry trees, bright with branches of pale pink flowers.  They provide a pleasant contrast to the earth tones of the buildings of the land.
The first week was a retreat with Stephen Batchelor and Joan Halifax.  Stephen traveled to the east in his early 20s, studied with Tibetan masters for nine years and Korean maters for another three before returning to England with his bride Martine.  He is probably most known for his book Confessions of a Buddhist Atheist.  Roshi Joan is the dharma holder for the center where I am.  A medical anthropologist by training, she worked alongside Alan Lomax and Joseph Campbell at Columbia before dedicating herself to study of the dharma.  Since founding Upaya, she has grown it in to a mini-university of the mind. (If you are interested, I encourage you to take a look at their schedule.) This retreat, titled ‘Being Completely Human’ focussed on the four noble truths: suffering, craving, the release of craving, and right living. Stephen, an avid scholar of the original Buddhist texts re-translates them as tasks: when craving, fear or attachment arise, recognize it, let it of and ‘get on with your work’.  In addition to being closer to the original writings, it makes them accessible to all, regardless of religious inclination.  The daily schedule was filled with meditation, lectures, work practice and fabulous organic, locally sourced vegetarian meals.  I had arrived quite harried, but over the five days I began to unwind.
If you would like to follow the lectures I am sitting in on, you can do so here: www.upaya.org, then scroll over ‘Teachings’, then click on ‘Free Dharma Podcasts’.  (For more about the retreats, scroll to ‘Our Programs’ then ‘Complete Program Schedule’.)  I am writing this on April 1st, the afternoon before I begin an eighteen-day electronics-free Spring Practice Period.  I was hoping Stephen’s opening lecture would be on line by now, but it is not.  If you can find it (March 25th), it was the most accessible of his lectures, and a good intro in to what interests me about Buddhism.
I haven’t mentioned it lately: I hope you and yours are happy and healthy.  I look forward to reconnecting with you ‘on the other side’, on or about April 20th.

Week 4: California

There is something about being in your hometown after you’ve been away for a while.  The bones are the same, but you can tell things have changed.  There are shopping centers where ponies used to graze, new businesses in the buildings that you do remember, homes have been renovated, open spaces cultivated as parks.  The thing that always gets me is new traffic lights.  I cannot tell you how many times I have stopped at an intersection that was previously a stop sign, looked all directions, then driven through the red.  This trip the traffic was too heavy for that to happen.

I grew up in a small town on California’s Central Coast.  During my childhood it was quiet, a summer tourist town surrounded by grazing cattle.  For years, our big claim to fame was that Daffy and Donald Duck took a wrong turn in Albuquerque, ended up on the beach, and found a diamond in a clam.  (When I would tell people the name their response was often ‘I didn’t know that was a real place!’)  Sometime during the eighties it became a haven for folks escaping LA.  While the new food and wine culture is fabulous, sprawl has crowded out the small town feel.  Despite this it was nice to be home.
I spent the first couple days with my dad.  He spent his career in the math department of the local university.  For most of this time, he and his colleagues would meet at lunchtime for walks.  It is fun to walk with and listen to them, a group of physics, maths and chemistry PhDs musing about the topic of the day.  I can barely keep up, both physically and conversationally.  My dad was a bit under the weather during this visit, so our first walk was shorter than normal, to the campus Arboretum, which highlights plants native to Mediterranean climates such as Australia, South Africa and Chile.  I was surprised how many plants we had in the yard growing up are native to Australia.  I also got a great snap of my dad next to a ‘baby’ redwood.
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After walks we have lunch and my dad naps.  During one of my dad’s naps, my stepmother told me an amazing story.  Her Japanese grandfather was the son of one of the Emperor’s advisors.  He came to the United States for the Worlds Fair, and stayed in New York to study at Columbia after it was over.  Her grandmother was an acrobat, so talented that she was invited to perform in Will Rogers’ vaudeville tour in the States.  Her grandfather was hired to be her translator on the tour.  They fell in love, married, and after years on the road, settled in upstate New York. During World War II they and their children evaded the interment camps, but her grandfather worked for a defense contractor and lost his job.  He was able to get another, but when they got a contract to support the war effort, he was let go again.  This happened several times, until by the end of the war he was washing cars to support his family.  My stepmother’s father was the third of their five children.
The next two days I spent with my mom.  On the first we want for a walk on the beach, had foot massages and a nice lunch.  On the second we drove up to Piedras Blancas, near Hearst Castle.  Hearst Castle is a large mansion commissioned by the newspaperman William Randolph Hearst. It is nestled atop a hill in the Santa Lucias, just south of Big Sur, and on clear days is visible from the PCH.  It was also the model for the mansion in the movie Citizen Kane.  At one time a zoo had been maintained on the property.  I had forgotten that after Hearst’s death, some of these animals were left to roam the surrounding hills.  Most open space in this area is ranch land, and you get used to seeing cattle and horses grazing in the fields.  Imagine my surprise when I came around a corner to see these ‘funny looking cows’ roaming the hillside.
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When I was growing up Piedras Blancas was considered to have some of the best surfing around.  The one drawback was that in the spring (when the waves are best) it was a Great White Shark nesting area.  With the decline in shark populations it is now a popular rookery for Elephant Seals. This time of year they visit to molt.  It was early in the season; within a month or so there will be thousands.  Recently there have even been a few cases when a seal has gotten on the PCH and been hit by a car.  (Apparently they can do a good deal of damage.)  DSCN1982DSCN1972It was an impressive sight (my previous experience was the one or two who would surf the waves down at Point Conception) but let me warn you, nothing makes you want to take a nap like watching a beach full of seals bask in the sun.
After five days at the beach it was time to change direction and head east towards New Mexico.  Next stop, Vegas!

Week 3: Westward Ho!

After a fabulous week in Florida, it was time to head west.  If it has not come up before, I love driving.  There is something about being on the open road, watching the landscape go by that clears my mind in a way few things can.    I am amazed by the diversity of these Untied States, both the landscape and the people, and long drives are an excellent opportunity to explore.  During most road trips there comes a time when I think I should just get my CDL so I can have someone pay me to do this, and this was no exception.  And on this leg I was starting from the Florida panhandle (instead of along the east coast as I did during grad school) and would be able to see landscapes during daylight that I had previously passed through after dark.

The first day turned out to be the most recent day I’ve seen precip – driving into a cold front I encountered bands of fierce rain every hundred miles or so.  The first was along the Atchafalaya Basin Bridge (18 continuous miles over bayou), just before I encountered near stop and go traffic.  After several miles (and twenty minutes) a tow truck passed on the eastbound lanes, ferrying a semi cab that was nearly folded top to bottom.  The doors had not been cut open, a good sign that (along with the fact it was being towed) suggested the driver was OK.  Once traffic got moving again it was green fields peppered with horse and cattle until the oil refineries along the border with Texas.  The last rain was just after Beaumont.

It is amazing what a few hundred feet of elevation will do.  Once in Texas, the land opened up in to low rolling hills, mostly dry, and the towns became further apart.  As the sun began to set I was in cattle country west of Houston, and stopped at a lone gas station along the highway.  I shared the lot and pumps with ranch trucks of varying vintages, and the south Asian woman behind the counter slipped easily between English and Spanish.  As the sun drifted below the horizon, a warm, dry breeze kicked up dust from the gravel and earth parking lot.

One of the most touching things I’ve encountered during this journey is the deep love Kevin’s friends still have for him. This night’s stay was in San Antonio, with a friend Kevin was stationed with at Maelstrom AFB (before he cross-trained to Flight Engineer).  Barstow* and Kevin had both been truck enthusiasts, the sort that lowered and tricked out theirs with custom paint, interiors, and rims, and drove hours (and in at least one case days) to display them at shows.  Despite intermittent contact over the years, there would be no hotel for me this night, I was staying at his place, no arguments, I was family.  And it was nice – Barstow has done well for himself and his family, his oldest in college and he and his youngest living in a large well-appointed home in the ‘booshe’ (short for bourgeois?) part of town.  And his vehicle did not disappoint, an Infiniti SUV with immaculate paint and interior, at normal height but with ’street’ rims and thinner tires.  It was great to catch up and also provide moral support while he and his son changed the water heater.

The next morning (late morning) I was on the road again, through the white hills, steep arroyos, and open scrub of west Texas.  Here I encountered one of my favorite road signs: Speed Limit 80.  (Woo Hoo!)   If you have never driven in this area, despite the quicker passing of the miles it can be a bit lonely.  The towns are seventy or so miles apart, and you consistently see blue placards at the bottom of exit signs advising the distance to next services.  For most of the drive up and down hills to Fort Stockton it was a few semis, an SUV from Ontario, the occasional local, and me.  Beginning about thirty miles south of El Paso, the highway parallels the border, and in many cases you can see across the Rio Grande (or over the wall) to foreign soil.  Here the only reported traffic congestion was at the bridges.

I left Las Cruces early, before the sun rose.  After a few miles, I encountered a Border Inspection point.  My SUV was filled to window height with books, yarn and clothes, all covered with blankets, but a quick show of my military ID had me waved through without any questions.  (As one of my friends later put it when I expressed my surprise, I could have had fifty Oaxacans back there.)  This section is one of my favorite highway drives, wide open desert (the Sonora), big skies, DSCN1882DSCN1887distant ranges, ground cover, low cactus, and Russian Sage (future tumbleweeds), all a deep green from the winter rains.  A rail line parallels the highway, with

long trains at fifteen-minute intervals,
the yellow red and black engines and blue, orange, kelly green and white container cars adding color to the landscape.  Each rest area seems to showcase an aspect of the region, one in the middle of a long valley (poppies and cactus blooming orange and magenta), one near a pass cut through sedimentary rock, another in an area of large round red rocks similar to those on the Flintstones, each with a sign reminding you to watch for rattlesnakes.  (With water and food scarce in the desert, small animals are drawn to picnic areas and their predators with them.)  I turned north at Quartzite to follow a road that wound along the brick, rust and black hills that frame the Colorado and Lake Havasu, the clear blue an odd sight in the arid desert. After ten miles on I-40 I crossed the river in to California and the Pacific Time Zone.  Home.

*Names changed because, well, my friends have real lives and are entitled to their privacy.